still it's all a bit creepy. of my family of five, 3 persons have birthdays this month, and all clustered together. i made my last phone call for the year last night to say my 'happy birthday wishes' and i should be free and good until after the new year.
i made up a story saying i would be away skiing for the holidays and i'll be back in touch after the new year. it's not true, and i use this space as my confession booth. how stinky is this situation.
when i wake up in the morning, i stay quiet and still for a moment thinking of what my responsibilities are for the new day. this morning i thought of my family and the pain i suffered beneath them and i was leaning towards being sad. but then i remembered, though they take the wind out of my sails for a minute and i get back up, they don't destroy me like they used to. not only do they not have this power any more, i've gotten stronger and wiser, thankfully. this makes me happy. and plus, sad but true, it frees me up to create for myself a life that brings me joy.
invent your world, surround
yourself with people, color
sounds, and work that
nourish you... sark