what comes first?

i like to have my desert before my meal. for example, sweet chocolate as the first taste is divine. indulgent! and as i have said, there is something sweet about doing some of the things we are not supposed to do. i suppose like being a bit of a rebel, ...without a cause. not writing within the lines, colouring girl's hair pink in my colouring book as a wee one, having desert first. shaking up the order of things.

one thing that came to me in these moments that i could never do is... well, someone once said to me that she always reads the ending of a book first to see how it ends. to see if it's a story that she wants to spend her time reading. i could never. sacrilege! reading the ending of a story first. i like the intrigue and wonder of not knowing, of slowly coming to what will be. ... then why is it so hard for us in life to wait and wonder to see what will be, ...the surprise and mystery of it all? there. i've done it, mentioned the complex. no desire for the complicated right now. chocolate cake first!