goin' with the flow...

not too long ago i expressed a discontent about not having a space where i feel at home. many of you gave much needed words of encouragement, as well as some tips on how to make where i am a bit more nice. and then i wrote about how i had worked hard on a project and it did not turn out as i had hoped. this, though i suspect i had been thinking on this for a while, got me to thinking to not hold on so tight, ease up, take it easy. let go and see what comes of it. i'm a bit of a perfectionist, i like to get it right. though i suspect perfect does not exist.

as perfect does not exist, for the moment if i allow myself, i see a bit of an opportunity. let me explain. last month the landlord of the apartment where i live advised that she needed to visit the apartment with a city inspector. i 'think' this is a routine check up by the city to see that all the nuts and bolts are in place. though it is an old apartment, my biggest worry was finding the batteries to put back into the smoke alarm. (i know i shouldn't take them out, but the sound is so awful.)

well after that visit, the inspector informed that there were some repairs that needed to be done. he would return to insure the repairs have been done. though this apartment is old, it's clean and all works well. it's just not so pretty. and because i share this space i have never tried to push my agenda for 'prettiness.' plus, et une raison plus forte, the rent is incredibly inexpensive. and to get an apartment in new york that is not expensive is like finding a gold mine. so we never tried to push our luck in terms of having it modernised.

long story made just a tiny bit longer, we are having, starting tomorrow repairs being done. they will come in and fix up the plumbing, repair any cracks, and do a nice paint job. maybe, i'm not saying definitely, if i can let go of the resentment that i have harbored as a result of living in an ugly, although inexpensive apartment, after the repairs i can be a bit pushy about redecorating.

that said, i won't be able to write and visit here in blogland for a tiny bit. i'm thinking about a week or so. but i'll be back and let you know what's the sense after the repairs (wish me luck). and i'll even try and spend some time in places that sell pretty home stuff for ideas, inspiration and a bit of purchasing. i'm hoping to be able to pop in and visit the blogs i like to visit. so we'll see how much i am able to do that, as all is boxed up now in preparation for repairs. hopefully i can find a little corner at night with my lap top and drop in to say hello to any dear ones who have come this way.

be well! ...à bientot.